Friday, December 18, 2009

Another First

2009 has had a lot of surprises for me (all of which I will summarize in a separate post at the end of the year, or the beginning of 2010, whenever I find time) and I’m gonna call it ‘The year of Firsts’. Yes… a lot of things have happened to me for the first time this year and I’m going to make a quick post out of this one, because my hand is killing me.

I have not mentioned this earlier, but in September this year, I made my first big purchase!!! I bought myself a bike!! Yay! So yes, I learnt how to efficiently ride it without hitting anything or anyone and within three days of its delivery, I was able to drive confidently on the road with traffic et all. I have been driving everyday since then (I’m not going to use the word riding here… I somehow don’t relate to that word. So even though a bike is ridden, I’m still going to drive it!). In the beginning it was just so that I could practice but later on I actually started using it for travel.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Hypocrisy and Indian Television

I know I am more than three years late on the issue, but hey, I discovered blogging only recently and even with that, you need something called inspiration (or in this case, something that gets on your nerves so badly that you would want to vent!)

During dinner time in our house, we generally watch the prime time soaps (on weekdays) because that’s the only time during the entire day when my mother gets to choose what she wants to see and since we have the TV to ourselves the entire day, we don’t dare to object, although our preferences when it comes to television programs do not match at all (my mom watches all the stuff that my sister and I watch, but the same is not the case the other way around). So even though we don’t want to, we end up watching all the Hindi soaps (that's her idea of 'entertainment' :-p)

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

The Sky is Falling!

After a long and tiring day at the office about two years ago, it was natural for me to fall dead asleep as soon as I was done with dinner. Those days, I had absolutely no track of time. It was as if all I did was, wake up to go to office, stare into the laptop screen for about ten hours and work my fingers through the MS Excel shortcuts, format workpapers, and take a long journey back home almost fifteen hours later only to have dinner and slump onto the lower bunk in my room. I don’t remember watching any movies, hanging out with friends; but since it was a long way to Andheri (where most of my client offices were located… Imagine, having to travel almost two hours each way to reach there when almost five years ago I lived just about fifteen minutes away!) the only way I had any social life was through my phone and I made the best of the traveling time by getting a lot of reading done.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A Perfect Circle

They say, ‘What goes around comes around,’ and as of this moment, for me there is no other statement that emanates more truth than this one. At the risk of sounding like a little girl (I was a little girl when it all began,) all I want to say is that I can’t believe its true and its happening, but it is!

As a nine year old girl, the vibes that I released into the universe completed a full circle two weeks ago, almost thirteen and a half years later. And was the wait worth it??? It definitely was! :)

Even two weeks ago, I was no where close to thinking that it would actually happen. But life is full of surprises and this awesome one hit me when I had stopped thinking about it and left it all up to fate to decide what would happen. After thirteen years that comprised of not talking, (for a major part of it :-p) then becoming friends, having the best times, misunderstandings and everything else that is normal and mundane between two friends, life took a sharp unexpected turn on this Friday the 13th!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Drawing the Line

I know I’ve returned to the blogging world earlier than I thought I would and this is a totally unintended and unplanned blog post but I have to have to have to write about this. Not forgetting that I have an exam in eleven hours, I’m going to be as blunt and straightforward and as to-the-point as possible (well, I’ll at least try!)

I haven’t been blogging over the last month or so but I haven’t disconnected myself from the World Wide Web! I have been accessing e-mails, checking (and updating) Facebook and twitter and about four hours ago I received an email to which I choose to reply via my blog (I've done enough of costing anyway!) and thereby lay some ground rules.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

We'll be right back

Over the last one week, there has been an unusual activity on the blog; an increase in the number of people who are reading; from one person in January when I started the blog (which remained so till February or March) to more than thirty today!!! And surprisingly I have not directly interacted with any of them; until just yet.

On this note, I would like to extend a very warm welcome to all the new readers and say that I am happy and excited to know that you are the least bit interested in reading what I write!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

What is it?

Not unlike earlier, I got this urge to suddenly put my thoughts into words and something turned out. At almost seven in the morning today, just as I was about to go to sleep, these words just started flowing in my head and if it were not for the fear of forgetting these lines, I would've closed my eyes and dreamt away!

And when I was wonderfully tucked in, was I in the mood to switch the computer on and start typing??? No!! But having technology around you and knowing how to use it has its own benefits. So I started typing this whole thing out on the "Notes" function of my phone; sliding my panel back down and locking the phone every time I thought it was all I could think of at the moment; only to slide it back up once more a few seconds later to gain access to the keypad so that I could type away (Believe me, typing on the phone is not as much fun as typing on the computer keyboard is!)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Huh! What???

It has been so long since I’ve felt this way,
All this while, on purpose; I’ve kept this need at bay.
But today I gave up and began to write,
A poem, a limerick; be whatever it might.

There’s no topic, no thought, nothing specific of any kind,
It may not make sense, as there’s nothing on my mind.
I’m staring at the sheet, with the pen in my hand,
Should this line end with ‘sand,’ ‘band’ or stand?’

Not troubling you any further, I’ll bring this to an end,
Before you hunt me down, so my neck you can bend!
This is as crazy and lame and stupid as it can get,
Of all the crap I’ve written, THIS might be the silliest one yet!

- Azaad!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I hate to do this to Maggi :(

"Maggi Noodles” has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. Whenever I was on my own for lunch or dinner, it was me and a double pack of Maggi Masala Noodles. It’s tasty and quick and certainly the most awesome thing available when you’re suddenly hungry and need a quick bite... it only takes 2 Minutes :)

But of late there’s been this advertisement that just doesn’t seem right and an advertisement has done this to me only once before. So what did I do then; I wrote about how ridiculous the Ad was and somehow they stopped airing the Ad a few days later (not that I had anything to do with it… or did I?) And once again I’m resorting to the same means to express my dislike of one of the new Maggi Ads that has been on for a few days; but not before expressing clearly that I love Maggi and over the last so many years, I’ve consumed countless packets but I haven’t fallen sick even once; so we know Maggi is safe!! :)

Quiet Please!!!

I must've said that more number of times at home than I have said that in class. Weird, I know! It’s ironic that as a teacher I haven’t said “Quiet Please” enough in class. But why would there be a need to say that at home?? Let me explain!

Our family is loud; and by loud I mean larger-than-life Punjabi loud (though neither of us is 100% Punjabi!) We tend to get super excited or super depressed thereby losing control over the decibel levels of our voices! Okay I exaggerated a little there! Anyway, on ordinary days, it’s totally fine. But aren’t rules supposed to be bent in exceptional circumstances – the exception now being my need to study for my exams in November. Then why am I wasting time blogging at 5 AM you ask? I needed to vent and who better than my dear e-dairy that listens (rather reads,) understands and empathizes in its own way that only I can understand!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

More Conversations with a 6 year old!

When I was writing the earlier post, I had asked Amma and Nattu if they remembered any more incidents that happened while Vishnu and Shwetha were here and after a looot of thought they gave up (I was being sarcastic.)

A few days ago as Natasha was imitating Shwetha’s facial expressions and accent, she happened to narrate an incident which she remembered so well, but had forgotten to mention it to me when I had asked. This was followed by my mother recollecting another incident and all I could do was ask them why they hadn’t told me this when I had asked them.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Teacher's Day - IPCC Nov '09

So I have my mug of coffee again (the first one for tonight) and I’m charged up (with the caffeine) and all excited to write about the next event!

Sunday, September 6th, 2009 - IPCC Nov '09 Batch
What Shveta Ma’am had described as “The Best Teacher’s Day Celebration so far’ could retain its status for a few hours short of twenty four hours only. What the IPCC Nov ’09 batch (hereafter called as ‘the students’) did for us was way more than what the earlier batch did. Firstly because the students in this batch were more than twice the number of students in the PCC May ’10 batch and that gave them the edge; ‘Economies of scale’ if it can be described in financial terms. Since the number of students was large, they could get a lot more done and therefore had loads of stuff planned for us. Moreover, the students of the May ’10 batch are also working (doing their bit of slavery called ‘Articleship’ by our Institute and the CA fraternity.) So for them to take out time after office and classes and still be able to plan so much for us was something to applaud!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Teacher's Day - PCC May '10

CAUTION: This is going to be a long post divided into two parts (interesting nonetheless.) So brace yourself to read a lot, or else come back when you are in the mood to do so. Thank you!

For all these years, I've been a part of planning and organizing stuff for our teachers, being a part of the dance performances we used to have on Teachers' Day at school, contributing to buy something pretty for our class teacher, decorating the classroom board with "HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY" written in a combination of all colors of chalks available and making decorative flowers and designs all over the board! But for the first time in life (again one of the many firsts this year) I was on the other side where students did this for us!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Review by Zack Brandit

I've joined this Blogger's community called Blogcatalog and there I saw that quite a few bloggers participated in a discussion and the title of the discussion drew me towards it. It was called...

"Tell Me Your Blog and I will Tell You How It's Perceived By Your Readers"
And I couldn't resist myself and I posted a small note to Zack Brandit (who was reviewing everyone's blog) and requested him to review mine. I aslo asked him if I could post the review on the blog to which he agreed. So here's the complete review (unedited!) posted with full permission!!! And I have to say; he's got the right idea about this one!! :-)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Voices of Mumbai!

Today's post is dedicated to a few of my friends and helping them out. They have been planning to start something on their own but the pool of ideas that'll work has sort of dried up! So I thought, why not ask our fellow Mumbaikars and get to know what the city and the people really want so that we can do something good out there for everyone.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Conversations with a 6 year old!

So my six year old cousin was here for a few days and she’s just as chirpy and talkative as I am; the only difference being that she chirps with an accent! So here are a few snippets from the awesomely entertaining conversations I had with her!

As soon as I picked up Mami and the kids at the airport, Shwetha ran up to me and gave me a big tiny hug (she barely reaches up till my stomach!) and smiled! Vishnu on the other hand is not the kind who shows affection so openly and greeted me and Tatha (my maternal grandfather who was also at the airport) with a smile and a ‘hi.

Friday, August 14, 2009


Results were finally announced yesterday about half an hour before noon and they were almost as I had expected. I did not clear either of the groups. I have been exempted from writing one paper since I scored above sixty in that one but will have to write the rest of the seven papers. That hurt!

I was hoping that I would pass the first group at least and I did pass all papers individually but did not make the required aggregate. But hey, as someone told me, one paper less is also a silver lining.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Mixed Emotions

As I mentioned in my previous post, I am going through a lot of mixed emotions right about now and I can’t sleep. I used to spend sleepless nights exactly two months ago when I was appearing for my exams when I was sleeping only once in two days for twelve hours straight!

I can’t believe that it has been two months already since I finished my exams. It has felt like time has just flown by! Those fifteen days of exams felt like fifteen long years and these two months passed like two weeks??? Isn’t that unfair??

Jailed at Home!!!!!

We were all so tired after Nagi Chacha’s 50th birthday party that getting up on Sunday morning was an effort especially when my body was aching so badly (which I later realized was due to all the dancing and head banging that I had done the previous night.)

Rudransh, who was having fever since the day of Raksha Bandhan and chachi; who was also suffering from fever for the last few days were not able to make it to the party. Even Munna chacha was feeling a little feverish by the time he left the party.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Day 2 of the trip...

I meant to write about this sooner but it has been a crazzzy three weeks! My cousins from the States had come over for two weeks (they were here from 11th of July till the 25th) and they were just too adorable to not play with (I have an almost six year old sister and an eleven year old brother!) So even though it had been constantly on my mind that I had promised to write about day 2 of the trip, I somehow wasn’t able to.

Moreover, my lectures finally started on the 13th! So that week I was “professing” (as Joey puts it :-p) in the morning and in the afternoons (will elaborate on that in a separate post) and therefore I’ve been busy. I’ve not been teaching during the last two weeks but have just been plain lazy to write and because of that it has taken this long for me to write about the second day of our trip.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Kalsubai - Heaven on Earth!

If someone had told me a week ago that I’d be standing on top of the highest peak of the Sahyadri, I would’ve laughed at them; hard. Me?? And trek?? It was something that was difficult for me to imagine, especially because I am not athletic at all and even more so, when my geography was just refreshed when I found out that Kalsubai is the highest peak in the Sahyadri ranges (I never liked geography anyway.)

For me, it was an outing with my school gang – something I had been looking forward to since the day we decided that we would all go away for a weekend trip. So I was all excited about going on a trip and having fun. Madhu and Amit told me two days before the trip that we would be going trekking and advised that I should bring appropriate shoes to facilitate the climb and strictly warned me against bringing any footwear that had heels. They added that apart from being appropriately dressed for the trek, I should also be mentally prepared for the trek and I thought, how hard could a trek be? Turns out, very!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Teaching the Master

After postponing for three days, it finally happened today. I called Ma’am in the morning and checked with her and she told me she’d be able to meet me at six in the evening. I was prepared since Monday so didn’t have to go through the entire thing once again. So I spent the afternoon surfing the net and watching the second and third episode of the first season of the OC.

I was there a few minutes before 6 and Ma’am came there around 6.10. I followed her to the small classroom where Binduji came and wiped the board clean for me to write on and Ma’am sat on one of the benches. It was weird at first and I told Ma’am that I am feeling very awkward teaching her and she very sweetly assured me that I had nothing to worry about. “Just think that I know nothing about what you are going to teach and go on,” she told me and that boosted my confidence a little.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Delays and Headaches

So I wanted to write and finish this story that I should have posted by Sunday night, but somehow I wasn’t able to. I guess I’ve lost the touch of keeping up with deadlines. Another thing that I should have accomplished by now was the demo lecture I was supposed to present before ma’am so as to ensure her that I would do a good job as a Math teacher for CPT; but even that will happen today!

I was supposed to meet ma’am on Monday but the cough I acquired during the last weekend got worse Sunday night; so much that my chest almost burns from inside every time I cough. So Monday got cancelled and I requested ma’am if I could come on Tuesday and she agreed. However, Tuesday afternoon I got a text message from her asking me to come the following day. So finally, I hope I’ll be able to go today afternoon and get it over with ‘coz I am getting irritated with the feeling of anxiety and nervousness that I’ve been having the past few days.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Back to Life :-)

The phone beeped once and then vibrated a few times before it caught my attention. I lifted my head from the pillow and checked the screen to see that it was Malika calling. The Sweet Dreamzzz profile created on my phone didn't help much as even though the phone just beeped once when I got a call, the sound of the phone vibrating was loud enough in the room where the only other sound was the fan running.

I answered the call. She wanted to know the address to which the letter to the CA Institute had to be sent. I told her something in half consciousness but realized I might have been wrong. I called my mother the next instant to ask her what was the address she had sent the letter to. When she confirmed, I called Malika back and told her that the letter had to be sent to Delhi and not Noida as I had told her earlier.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Upcoming Posts...

I have come back home after an entire week and the last week has been amazing to say the least. I haven't been able to write much except about the road trip that we had but now that I am back home the ideas are just waiting to be written about.

For starters, I have this romance story that I will be posting within this week. The idea for this story has been contributed by my cousin Kritika, who told me about this somewhere around April and insisted that hers be the first story that I write once my exams got over and so I am going to oblige.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Road Trip

I didn't even wait for twenty four hours after my exams got over and rushed to Andheri the very next day. I didn’t care that I was sleep deprived or that I was tired or that the one and a half hour journey with a lot of bags was not the first thing that I wanted. But with all that on one hand and the idea of meeting a bunch of people I love the most on the other; it was obvious what I’d choose.

I had exams from the first of June till the fifteenth on every alternate day and the trend had become such that I couldn’t sleep on the night before the exams. So I ended up staying awake for more than twenty four hours (drinking a lot of coffee to make that possible) and write the paper almost tired and I used to crash on the bed as soon as I got home after the paper and sleep straight for twelve to fourteen hours. Then again the cycle of staying up till the exam on the next day, began and it went on for two whole weeks. In short, I was sleeping once in two days.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Peaceful Sleep

It feels great to be back! Exams are over (finally!) and it seemed as if these fifteen days have dragged on like fifteen months!

There are so many things that I want to write about but it’s been more than twenty four hours since I’ve been up and I am very very tired and sleepy. Tonight I’m going to sleep without any tension at the back of my mind for the first time in seven to eight months; knowing that I don’t have to worry about the exams (if I have to write them again which I’m pretty sure I might have to) till the results are out; knowing that I’m going to be with my friends from tomorrow till the time I get sick of them and feel like coming back home; knowing that I will have my life back again; knowing that I won’t have to put off blogging about my thoughts; and most of all, knowing that I am back to being the way that I have always been!

I have a whole list ready and will post about things very often from now on. But right now I need to sleep!

Sweet dreams!!!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Axis Bank - Visa Debit Card

There's is this ridiculous advertisement that is being aired on TV for the last few days and I can't help but think how silly the entire idea is. The ad goes something like this...

There's this guy who asks an auto-rickshaw driver if he'll go to the ATM and the driver says, "ATM? Nahi..."

Monday, May 11, 2009

Probably the only post I'll write in May!

Okay.. I have been very busy studying the last few days... finally!!! (so busy that I haven't been able to do the two things that I like the most apart from blogging... Sleeping and yapping away on the phone!!) It was disturbing me a little that its been 10 days in May and I haven't posted a single thing on the blog. Suddenly, I was reminded of this chat conversation that makes me laugh everytime I read it!!! (gmail saves chats u see...)

So I thought, why not give everyone a laugh without having to actually spend time in coming up with something new!! So I've pasted the entire chat conversation (I've edited the typo errors!) that my sister had with one of my closest friends and he didn't even realise that it wasn't me!!!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Sagaai, Mehendi and My BIRTHDAY!!!!! (Part 3)

The plan for the evening was that my school friends and Kanchan & Saurabh were going to come over to my Dada-Dadi's place at Andheri, where I would cut the cake with family and friends present and then I would take my friends out for dinner. We freshened up as soon as we reached home and I went down to Birdy's to buy the cake. Vishal and Madhu were the first ones to come. I remember Ananya's reaction when I introduced them to the family. She twitched her face and gave an awkward smirk and said, "Madhu??" when she learned that a guy's name was Madhu. Poor Madhu gets that every time he tells someone his name.

Amit and Sandeep were the next ones to arrive and asked, "Score kya hua hai?" as soon as they entered. Yes, the IPL matches began that day and did not let that affect my friends' attention towards me at all! :-p My ignorance and disinterest didn't bother them at all. I was talking a lot as usual and my friends suggested that I should replace Mandira Bedi on screen, as even she talks a lot, doesn't make sense and doesn't know what she's talking about. So I would be perfect for the job!! Again... WTF??? ;-)

Sagaai, Mehendi and My BIRTHDAY!!!!! (Part 2)

I don't want to talk about the mehendi function AT ALL!!! Everyone knows how much I love having a beautiful design made on my hand in Henna; so much that when I realised that no one else was going to give in to my requests and apply it for me, I learnt to do it myself (the only drawback being that I always had mehendi only on my left hand!) and gradually I became good at it. So of course I know the different styles of mehendi designs and even if I didn't, I can tell the difference between a good design and a horrible one. I hope you can understand where I'm going. Well, I guess I'll have to narrate the entire thing anyway (ah! The pain that causes!!)

Sagaai, Mehendi and my BIRTHDAY!!!!! (Part 1)

I know it's been a long time since I punched keys here, but a lot had been going on in the past few weeks which left me either too tired or too excited or too happy or just plain bored to type (and I love typing... All my bosses can confirm that!!!)

Starting with my Bua's engagement ceremony and the week long preparation in anticipation of that; the entire week has been eventful (of course the engagement was almost ten days ago but the spirits are still high!) It was a typical chat mangni, pat byah type situation; engagement on one evening combined with the Sangeet function (Sangeet these days has a totally different feel with a DJ,) followed by the Mehendi and Haldi functions the next evening and finally the wedding, the morning after! And coincidentally the wedding was on my Birthday!! :-)

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Ministers of Sinister Activities!

I was just talking to Jay over the phone the other day and after the general Hi-Hello, How are things, I happened to ask him, Arre yaar! Elections are coming up! Whom do we vote for? And that led to this brilliant idea (the entire credit goes to Jay Shah... I've just put it into words!) We discussed how we; (our gang) if appointed to run the nation would change things. So we started talking about how we, as Ministers of this country can make a difference, who will take up what position and how that will help the country. Now that's a plan! ;-)

It was almost a ten to fifteen minute discussion (on an international call!) and unfortunately I could not remember who was supposed to handle what Ministry. So Jay and I clarified this over e-mail and chat and refreshed our memories; and once the final list of candidates and their positions was ready, I decided to post it over here. Neki aur pooch pooch ;-)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Random Bakwaas!

It's one of those days where you feel like just lazing around and doing absolutely NOTHING! Phew… I’ve just described every single day of my life for the past few weeks now! Worst part, I can’t afford to laze around and do nothing. And with the growing heat and humidity all I want to do is keep the AC on the entire day and not get out of my room at all!! What’s with the heat anyway?? It is impossible to do anything in this weather and enjoy it. As I am typing, even Merlin (my MS Office Assistant) is yawning and dozing off.

If this is the condition in April, I’d rather migrate to some place cooler (even 30 degrees seems cooler at this moment) before May sets in. Just two days ago, I was out in the afternoon (bad time to get out of the house, I’m telling you) just to go from one building to another and I was drenched in sweat. That was in Andheri and the thought that Navi Mumbai would be a bit better made me feel nice. But once I was back here, I realized that the condition here is no better. It seems as if the best time to venture out in this weather is after dark.

Sunday, March 29, 2009


Rakesh didn't know how to react. She knew?? How? When? For how long? All these questions remained unanswered. He felt terrible about what had happened. He saw the tears that had filled her eyes as she said “I know,” and he couldn’t control himself any longer. He held her at her waist, with his head softly placed on her grown belly and broke down. She put her hand on his head and they both cried without saying a word to each other.

For her; she had brushed past her worst nightmare and life was normal again – almost. Rakesh was there with her and would always be there for their children. She didn’t want anything more. She didn’t want him to explain, didn’t want him to beg for forgiveness; she was just glad that it was over.

Denial, Acceptance and Healing - Part 3

The third and final part of my story coming up people! Finally... Let me assume that quite a lot of people were eagerly waiting for it (for the sake of inspiration for me to write more) and their wait is now over. Thanks a lot for being patient enough to wait for the final part of the story. Happy Reading :-)

Denial, Acceptance and Healing...
(Continued from Part II...)
One afternoon, as Naina was sitting on the chair by the window where Ruhi usually played, she couldn’t control her tears. It was the worst feeling when Ruhi came up to her and asked, “Ma! What happened? Why are you crying?” and Naina had no answers. What could she tell her three year old? How could she explain the hurt to her? How could she tell Ruhi that she didn’t know if her father was going to be with them forever when she didn’t know it herself?

Monday, March 23, 2009

Before I die, I just have to...

The question says; list five things and as I started typing, I realized that you can list more than five if you wish. But then knowing myself, I have the tendency to go overboard. So even though with a little more thought and effort I could have listed at least 20 things to do before I die, I decided to stick to 5! :-)

Denial, Acceptance and Healing - Part 2

Here's the second part of the story. I guess I'll be able to finish it in three parts after all (Phew!! That's a task! Conciseness isn't my strength you see...) Thank you people for the appreciation (and critical analysis) of the first part. It made me feel wonderful knowing that it made you want to read more. I hope I have been able to do justice to the second part and the flow has been maintained. As usual, comments and criticism are welcome; they'll only make me improve... (Only comments will be made public... Criticism... let us save that for phone conversations...) Happy Reading!! :-)

Denial, Acceptance and Healing...
(Continued from Part I...)
Naina sat there wondering, her mind blank but still thinking, processing the information that she had just come across. She went back to replace the phone on the night-stand, when Rakesh stirred and turned. He opened his eyes momentarily and saw her standing there.

"Hey!" he said smilingly, "Good Morning! What time is it?"

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Denial, Acceptance and Healing - Part 1

Okay People, my first attempt at a short story (so far I've only written stories that even though have a good base, don't seem to be going anywhere and more importantly, don't seem to have an ending!) I've posted the first part here and I plan to complete it in another one or two, maximum three parts (I don't intend to drag it on like the soaps!!) So Happy Reading!! Enjoy!!

Denial, Acceptance and Healing...
Part I

She had known for about two months now that he had been cheating on her and those two months had been the hardest so far. The gut-wrenching pain was too much to bear. She looked across the room to see her three year old sitting under the window and playing with her toy horse; smiling happily every time she managed to push and turn it over. She realized that she was more powerful than the horse and that delighted her.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Holi Hai!

Happy Holi Everyone!!

There are two reasons for me to write this post.
1. I just checked my inbox and saw an e-mail from Gaurav saying how much he missed the Holi party last year, and
2. Well, since I was reminded of the Holi party, I thought of Mehul and Anshul who had requested me to write a narrative about the party after I uploaded the pictures on Orkut!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Its Raining...

Of late, I've been devoting more time to discovering what's the best schedule for me to follow while I'm studying and I've concluded that since I can't get up early in the morning, its best for me to start late during the day and study deep into the night (until its day-break sometimes...) And believe me, the kind of peace and quiet at that time is just the kind of atmosphere you need for maximum concentration. So I've been doing that for quite sometime now.

Not considering my constant need to take a break from studying (I guess I should start calling studying, as taking a break from ‘breaks’ :-p) the quiet, dark environment is the best time to study, especially if you live on the ground floor. Oh! The way children yell while playing cricket (as if they’re playing for the World Cup!), the constant horns of vehicles passing by (I don’t understand the need for people to speed inside a residential complex and then honk the hell out of that horn which is not supposed to be played with unnecessarily! Why can’t people drive slowly when they know there are going to be children running around rather than speeding and then honking on the pretext of not hurting them?), the children calling out to each other to come down to play (one girl comes near my building somewhere around four thirty or five and calls out “Vishakha!!!” and keeps calling her name out without a pause of more than five seconds… I guess Vishakha is either deaf or is ensuring that the people living on the ground floor are disturbed to the maximum extent possible… as if the cars and the cricket team of the colony weren’t already ganging up to do that!) or the auto rickshaws coming by every few minutes to drop someone off; are all reasons that encourage people like me (who get distracted and irritated at the slightest provocation) to study in the night. Thankfully, everyone around here sleeps at that time, so have the night all to myself.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

The Unnamed Feeling

It's all I can think about, my mind is never at rest,
Relentlessly dreaming, wondering and wishing for the best.
An indescribable emotion, an unnamed feeling,
An ache unattended, longing for loving healing.

I'm dreaming the day away, with my eyes wide open,
Of words that I so want to hear, still unheard, still unspoken.
It's ironic that it seems so real, when in fact it's really not,
It seems to be what I want, the passion I've always sought.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

I Thought...

I wanted things to be just fine; I wanted life to be smooth,
It's not in my hands to decide, what kind of fate to choose.
I wanted bliss and happiness around me all the while,
In my stride I wish I could, take it all with a smile.

I thought I could go on again like the way it was before,
Get back on my feet, get over it and handle even more.
I thought I could forget it all and go on with my life,
What did I know that life was all about uncertainty and strife!

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Respite, Relief and Realization!!!!

After a mind-numbingly sarcastic and distressed narrative I’m happy to be writing about something AWESOME!!! And yes, such strong positive emotions can be evoked only by my school friends, a few members of my family and some other close friends that I have.

The past few days have been an emotional roller-coaster and my mind has been playing see-saw with my thoughts. Meeting the gang for Sandeep & Jay’s birthdays was something I was looking forward to for a long time. I was more eager to make plans for that day than Sandeep himself was and I had started discussing it with him ten-twelve days before his birthday. Making a card for him and Jay was like a project for me (Jay and Sandeep share their birthdays but unfortunately Jay is in the US for his masters.)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Growing Up… It’s not for everyone!

Some people remain three year olds even in their twenties and I saw a live demonstration of that yesterday night much to my annoyance. I would have rather been at home and enjoyed the ‘Prime Time Soaps’ (compared to yesterday night’s freakishly irritating scene, the soaps are a delight!) But it happened to be one of my closest friend’s birthday dinners and it would be unfair to him.

So I went to wish Tanuruh Happy Birthday!

Monday, February 16, 2009

25 Random Things about me!!

Okay! I didn't intend to write it this way, but saw that quite a few people on Facebook were adding notes to their profiles with this title. I read just one and the writer’s bug in me couldn’t resist.

Over the last week I have reached the highest highs (don’t worry… am not on dope) and lowest lows! (Sounds like a line from the song ‘Inside Out’ by Bryan Adams) Even though I so badly want to describe each one of these extreme emotions, something tells me that it is better that I don’t. Not now at least (maybe sometime later when I’m okay with letting it out.)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Potter's Pub...

It was 1998, 6th standard just got over and we planned a vacation to go to Ghana (since Papa was working there). Ghana was just like India. Same kind of roads, a little trash here and there, small apartment buildings, shops, the trees, and even beggars at signals! The difference lies in the fact that people there are a lot darker and you drive cars on the right side of the road.

In the two month trip to a foreign land we went to beaches, forts, castles, shopping centres, and something that was amazing for an eleven year old – a Pub! I still remember. It was right down the street where Papa lived and it was called ‘Potter’s Pub.’


Right about now, I was supposed to be almost ready and on my way to Hawaiian Shack! My first experience of going to a real Pub (apart from the one time I went to a pub in Ghana at the age of eleven with Amma and Papa. But then I guess that hardly counts) and even that plan goes down the drain.

It is very rare that my office gang plans an outing and when they do, somehow or the other something happens and things don’t work out. Nine out of ten times it is the hectic work schedule leaving a ten percent chance for lethargy and boredom to kick the plan’s butt. The funny thing about this situation is that this time, everyone else is in! I on the other hand (being one of the very few openly enthusiastic people in the group) am sitting at home typing out this post when the others, in about an hour or so will be out of office on their way to party into the weekend.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

31!! The magic number!

It has been confirmed! That the rumors that the Institute was considering that the exams be postponed till June, are true. However, the information on the site still states that…

"Since the Elections to the Lok Sabha and Legislative Assemblies of some States are likely to be held in the months April and May, 2009, it has been decided to hold the next Chartered Accountants PE-II, PCE, Final (Old and New course), IRM, MAC (Part I), TMC (Part I), CMC (Part I), ITL & WTO Examinations tentatively from 1st to 15th June, 2009 instead of May, 2009."

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Its February!!! Already??

January's gone! Yikes! And I thought I still had time.

I looked at the calendar yesterday morning and realized that one whole month had gone by just like that! It seems to me that we celebrated New Year’s Day just yesterday. And as I saw May closing in faster than I thought it would, I started to get worried about whether I still had enough time to complete the entire syllabus. All the previously made plans till then had crashed… massively (or massive bigly :-p) That got me thinking and working again. And after another big planning session, I have things back in control (at least it seems so that way… and being the optimist that I am, I’d like to believe that they are in fact so!)

Saturday, January 31, 2009

I better have a good reason for this!

Well, its 2.50 am, I'm still up, NOT studying and yet I don't feel like doing anything else but mindlessly playing with the keyboard and then hoping that something good will turn out. Some of my best ideas and thoughts have surprisingly been born at this hour or when I'm sleeping... Yes! I have come up with stuff in my sleep. But alas! When morning comes, it also destroys the magical idea, whatever it was.

I come up with solutions for things that have been bothering me even if I am not aware that they are in fact bothering me and the solution always seems so simple. Its as if the answer is right there in front of you and you still don't know it. But when you consciously try and think about it, you're still stuck without knowing what to do!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

My first blog!

Every time I went through an emotion; a very strong one, be it happiness or extreme sorrow I have felt the need to pen it down. And this led to a lot of diaries with only the first few pages filled as I could never write about my feelings on a regular basis. Although these ‘Dear Diary’ moments have been very frequent in my life, I had been too busy brooding about them to actually do anything else.

And one day a friend introduced me to blogspot. It sounded very interesting. The very fact that you could have your own web page and write stuff about your own life was fascinating. And today, after yet another emotional debacle I couldn’t resist having one for myself.